I remember back at the 2012, when this account was created and I felt my life got better. I used to post everything I ever thought it'd be nice for people to see. Wolves drawings? Of course I'll post. Landscape photos? Well why not? Video game collections? Sure thing! Write about life? HELL F@
#KLING YEAH!
Those were nice days... that should definitely get back.
2018 is going to an end and it seems I did nothing or at least quite a few stuff to this account. Despite being more active on Fur Affinity, needless to say that my DA has seen better days.
The truth is that I was on a big project and forgot to give necessary attention to anything that wasn't the project, even my work and college classes.
This kinda wasted me to the point I had to stop the project for a while.
Now, what also ruined things here (not only 2018) was that I kinda mixed professional issues with this personal account. What do I mean? Well... with the urge to post only final art, I ended up uploading nothing. Look at the 2018 deviations folder.... actually no. Don't look at it... it's a shame. We all learn to do great things when we learn from our mistakes, right? How can I ever shine if people don't get to know my darker moments?
I could waste my time blaming certain people I met in my life, personal issues or vitimizing myself... things that I actually did in my mind. Did it work? I guess we can all agree it didn't. But now that I recognize my mistakes and issues, it's time to change... or at least try to get back to what I was before <3
There's so much I could've done. So much I could've write... And there's so much I STILL CAN DO
I love gaming, films, songs... and no one gets to know what are my thoughts on something, not to mention that I dream of moving to Canada and to make that happen, I must improve english... things that could evolve if I wrote more stuff.
Now that Stan Lee passed away I wonder how many deaths will happen so I learn that life is f#
king short to waste time with stupid fears that are only in my head? If a person dislike something I make, it's okay! I guess we all have the right to love and hate, as long as there is respect for human dignity. ^_^
I don't want you to feel bad for me
I actually did wrong things such as asking people to watch me, when they actually should do it only if they wanted, without the need to beg it... but I guess I could throw the "excuse card" of immaturity xD. But I can have the maturity to tell you that you don't need to watch me just because you liked me for something I did in the past or cause I asked you to.
I really can't promise things are going to be like the beginning. But I see no barriers that blocks me from writing my thoughts and ideas. They never existed and will never exist.
And if no one reads this, it's also completely okay! I finally came to the conclusion that the things I do here are but primarily for myself as a way to escape reality that may be ruthless sometimes.
Thanks a lot for reading ... and for writing it.
We may see each other soon ;3